As I sit here and write this, the reality that in 36.5 hours the freshmen girls will be arriving! That is quite nerve wracking! I think I'm ready though. Walk About and training definitely prepared me to take on this responsibility. Walk About was awesome because it helped me identify some of my own insecurities that are preventing me from being fully confident in myself and my abilities. One thing that kept coming up during solo was the fact that I need to believe in myself and not limit myself. I'm not really sure how to explain how I place limitations on me, but I know that I do it, and I'm finally realizing that I'm just as guilty of it as a couple people in my past have been. Also on Walk About, I had multiple opportunities to confront my trust issues. When I was interviewed, I had no choice but to be vulnerable with my group. Usually, when I see that there's a need to be vulnerable, I run in the opposite direction. But this year if I want to develop a genuine and deep connection with my girls, and if I expect them to trust me and come to me, I need to be vulnerable with them. I thank my group and God for understanding and encouraging me in my weakness. Training has helped me a lot as well. They've put us in situations that have exposed me to issues I could run into this year, and they have also put me in situations that have taught me humility and grace. Every morning we start with devotions with the rest of our team, and this morning one girl that led handed out small cards that contained a verse and a saying. The saying on mine is as follows: God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. That was perfect for me. If I took the time to explain the reasons why that was so perfect, my post would be as long as my last, so you'll just have to trust me on this one. I guess to sum things up, the past few weeks have been intense and trying, and have stretched me in all directions, but they have shaped my heart into one that is ready to take the year on (for the most part). There are a couple scriptures that have helped me through this process, so I'll end with those. Thanks for reading!
Psalm 36:5-7 (I had this scripture with me on accident during solo, but it turned out to be a good accident!)
Your love, O Lord, reaches to the heavens,
your faithfulness to the skies,
Your righteousness is like the mighty mountains,
your justice like the great deep.
O Lord, you preserve both man and beast.
How priceless is your unfailing love!
Both high and low among men find refuge in the shadow of your wings.
Proverbs 3:5-6 (I used this when I led Bible study, and it talks about trust)
Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.
Colossians 4:6 (a fellow RC gave this scripture to me to encourage me in my insecurity)
Let your conversation by always full of grace, seasoned with salt,
so that you may know how to answer everyone.
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